These things are what’s keeping me awake.
I try everyday not to let you get in the way
I just want to tell you how I feel.
But logic states that I should turn around and run.
You’re no good for me.
Yet I can’t help but to love you.
These things are killing me.
Because I know that I can’t have you.
So lets just go our separate ways,
because its easier to not think of you at all.
Maybe one day you’ll see what you’ve missed,
what you missed, was standing here all along.
You’re no good for me.
Yet I can’t help but to love you.
These things are killing me.
Because I know that I can’t have you.
So lets go our separate ways,
Because it’s easier not to think of you at all.
The door opens and I go in.
My whole world is turned upside down.
The furniture is above me and I’m standing on the ceiling.
My time is running out.
I begin to run; run toward anything familiar.
An opening in the wall I enter.
I find myself in a forest where curious plants reside.
I’m frightened.
Running, running, running.
I don’t know my way.
A smiling cat stops me in my path.
He flashes his fangs at me and hisses,
“Why do you run?”
I cannot reply.
This terrifying creature before me has taken my breath away.
His smile covers from ear to ear.
“WHY do you run little girl?”
I try to spit out an answer, but no words are freed from my lips.
He vanishes, but his laughter is echoing all around me.
I begin to run.
Strange trees fly past me.
A sign that reads “Don’t step on the Mome Raths.”
Running, running, running.
I come upon a house.
A booming voice enters my ears.
“WELCOME TO MY TEA PARTY.”
A madman stands before me.
His hair like fire and his hat taller than I am.
“YOU’RE LATE.”
Astonished, I cannot move.
I can’t breathe.
Everything goes black.
Darkness encompasses me.
I being to walk.
I think I’m walking.
Toward a light.
I come upon a clearing.
It’s another forest.
No.
It’s a meadow.
Everything is just so much larger than I.
Curious.
I begin to walk through this meadow.
A sickly sweet smell fills my nose.
Singing?
Do I hear singing?
I come across a caterpillar.
He’s exotic and beautiful.
He sings a rhyme about a crocodile.
I stand and listen until he suddenly stops.
“WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE CHILD?”
I try to tell him that I’m lost.
The words won’t come out.
His voice becomes fierce and angry.
“WHAT. ARE. YOU. DOING. HERE. CHILD?”
I begin to cry.
It hurts.
I croak out, “I don’t know!”
I begin to run again.
He calls after me..
I think he says, “You’re calling the smiling cat!”
Everything’s mad here.
No time to stop.
My time is running out.
Why AM I here?
Running blindly through dense vegetation.
SNAP.
Oh no.
I’m falling.
SMACK.
I hit hard ground.
I’m in a hole.
Dammit.
He said, “You’re falling into her trap!”
But maybe I can call the smiling cat.
I whisper, “Please, wherever you are, help me out of here.”
He materializes.
Fangs sharp and smiling ear to ear.
He begins to cackle.
Hisses, “You can only help yourself out of here little girl.”
Vanishes.
His laughter.
Angry and evil.
All your stupid lies mean nothing. All those promises you made. I thought you’d give me the chance to explain. But it doesn’t matter now. No matter what I say or do, it doesn’t matter now. We once had it all, and you let it fall apart. Nothing I say or do now will change the hatred in your heart. I thought I was making sense for once in telling you how I felt. I thought you had actually changed. But it doesn’t matter now. These tears keep falling. I hate this feeling like I’m losing something that was worth keeping. No matter what I say or do. It doesn’t matter now.
In this empty room there are only memories of the times we had once a long time ago. The silence speaks only the truth and it kills me to listen. I can’t help but to miss the first time we kissed. I hate myself for what I did to you but I hate you more for leaving. If I could take it all back, I wouldn’t. This wasn’t meant to be. Look past all the bad and run toward the good because, baby, that’s where I’ll be. Without you here I have to stand on my own.
My hands are cold but my heart is warm
Having you here with me is everything I’ve ever wanted
I feel like Cinderella when you look at me
My fairytale ending is just around the corner
No matter where we go or what we do
As long as you’re with me we’ll make it through
Stay with me forever.
Lets run away from this fucking town.
Forget the people and the memories.
Everything that once was doesn’t matter now.
As long as you’re here with me.
Don’t forget the promises we made.
And we’ll be happy for eternity.
Everything around me is closing in.
All the things promised now forgotten.
When will normalcy return?
Everything around me is closing in.
Darkness is too sweet to swallow.
I never knew it would end like this.
Everything around me is closing in.
Black tears roll down my face into oblivion.
Is my only release through death?
Everything around me is closing in.
I don’t feel like myself anymore.
The pain is just too much to bear.
Everything around me is closing in.
Alas, a light.
What secrets does it hold?
Everything around me is closing in.
It whispers sweet sorrows into my ear.
What do they mean?
Everything around me is closing in.
It’s warmth says I’m no longer numb.
It’s heart says that someone cares.
It’s love says that I’m alive.
Everything around me is breaking out.
Where do I go from here?
I have no idea.
But I’m free.
